AwFuL ThuRsdAy~

today...
i got a test on 8am for history of s&t...
so i woke up with unopened eyes...
i was so blur and went dewan makan to have my breakfast with roomate.
then,i had my test at dewan kuliah baru there...
its was a simple test,i did not study so much...
then,went for next classes...bio populaton
but i ponteng the man n earth class on 10am...
i wnet back room and
did more reading about the heart treatments,
because we will visit to IJN(institute jantung negara) this afternoon...
so...after having our lunch..we had a short meeting and departed on 1:45pm...
we arrived there sharply 2:30pm...
and we met the cardiologist to do our interview...
jein wei interviewed him first,
then followed by me~
awful moment came...
i was so nervous,n i spoke so many broken english...
i was ashamed of myself...
why i was acting like an idiot n so stupid in front of the doctor...
i think i had given a very very bad impression for the doctor...
then,was li juan n poh kei turn's to interview him,
so my heart was calm down at that moment...
but lastly, when we about to leave the doctor's room...
the doctor said "i think u all should improve ur english. except that boy,u really good!"
he meant that 3 of us (girl) were speaking very poor english...
my heart was just like striking by a big stone n it is so painful...
i knew...
my english is really bad~
how can a university student speak such broken english?
its my fault...
i should start to improve it...
speak more, read more n listening more...
i want to be excellent n i want to speak english fluently!!!!
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since i was child,
english is my favourite languange instead of chinese...
i usually score quite well in english~
but, when i growing up,
i realise that my english is just a half pail of water...
its not good at all....
but...i had tried several ways to improve it,
why still cannot?
i read english books,read english paper, n even listening to english song...
it does not help at all....
maybe i am not enough enthusiasm...
i din't speak with my friend in english... that's why...
everyday speak chinese....haiZ...
i think now is the time for me to change...
if not~when i graduate, no company or hospital will want me...
then i will lie idle~die
so,gambateh for myself!!!!
my new plan~IMPROVE MY ENGLISH SPEAKING!!!
yes, i can do it!!!