AwFuL ThuRsdAy~

today...
i got a test on 8am for history of s&t...
so i woke up with unopened eyes...
i was so blur and went dewan makan to have my breakfast with roomate.
then,i had my test at dewan kuliah baru there...
its was a simple test,i did not study so much...
then,went for next classes...bio populaton
but i ponteng the man n earth class on 10am...
i wnet back room and
did more reading about the heart treatments,
because we will visit to IJN(institute jantung negara) this afternoon...
so...after having our lunch..we had a short meeting and departed on 1:45pm...
we arrived there sharply 2:30pm...
and we met the cardiologist to do our interview...
jein wei interviewed him first,
then followed by me~
awful moment came...
i was so nervous,n i spoke so many broken english...
i was ashamed of myself...
why i was acting like an idiot n so stupid in front of the doctor...
i think i had given a very very bad impression for the doctor...
then,was li juan n poh kei turn's to interview him,
so my heart was calm down at that moment...
but lastly, when we about to leave the doctor's room...
the doctor said "i think u all should improve ur english. except that boy,u really good!"
he meant that 3 of us (girl) were speaking very poor english...
my heart was just like striking by a big stone n it is so painful...
i knew...
my english is really bad~
how can a university student speak such broken english?
its my fault...
i should start to improve it...
speak more, read more n listening more...
i want to be excellent n i want to speak english fluently!!!!
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since i was child,
english is my favourite languange instead of chinese...
i usually score quite well in english~
but, when i growing up,
i realise that my english is just a half pail of water...
its not good at all....
but...i had tried several ways to improve it,
why still cannot?
i read english books,read english paper, n even listening to english song...
it does not help at all....
maybe i am not enough enthusiasm...
i din't speak with my friend in english... that's why...
everyday speak chinese....haiZ...
i think now is the time for me to change...
if not~when i graduate, no company or hospital will want me...
then i will lie idle~die
so,gambateh for myself!!!!
my new plan~IMPROVE MY ENGLISH SPEAKING!!!
yes, i can do it!!!

english presentation

i was doing my english presentatin just now
it was teribble,
its not easy to stand in front and talk for 5 minutes...
i felt stress about it because it contribute 30% to our final...
just now,i was very nervous...
i had forgot some of my sentences...
and the slideshow that i had done was not attractive and not creative...
at the moment that i just finished my presentation,
i was upset and i was not satisfy on what had i presented just now...
there are too much error...
i think i am very weak when i compare with the others...
but why did i compared myself with them?
the most important thing is i had tried my best,thats enough...
i was put a lot of hope on it before that,
and i want to score A...
but now,i do not dare to hope to get A...
i don't know whether i can do it or not...
so...i don't want think anymore...
i just hope that i can do better on next time 50% final presentation....
i will always remember what my dad reminds me...
"IF U THINK U CAN, U CAN!!!!"
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it was raining recently...
even now,when i am writing my blog,it is raining outside
raining actually is good also because the weather is too hot
if there are no rains,we all will become hot-tempered like the sun...
Although there was raining, but for me...
i still want myself to behave like sunshine
and happy everyday~
therefore,everyday is sunshine day in my heart...

P.S: hope there are no rhythm of falling rain on MKC....

Helpless~

everytime i felt happy,i will write my blog...
however,
everytime i felt sad and down, i will also write my blog...
This time~ for sure i am sad and helpless...
my feeling was complicated...
i don't know what can i do....
anyone at here can help me?
i am so helpless and stressed...
when i slept until midnight,i was suddenly awake and feel tension...
i wanna cry...
yesternight was MKC rehersal...
i know i was dancing very bad...
and i heard some opinion that made me very sad...
they said my facial expression was very bad,
my eyes and smile was very weird...
i had tried to do my best but finally failed...
i never skip any dance practise but why
still got ppl say my dance was not enough soft and very solid!
i was frustrated...
i want to live happily and have a happy college life...
but why? why i not happy at all....
but it does not mean i don't like mkc,
i just very upset because i had put many effort but i can't get a good result...
my heartbeat was very fast recently...thats mean
i am very tension and stressed...
am i really that bad?
tomorrow will be my english presentation evaluation,is 30%..
i just had done my slideshow but i did not do any preparation at all....
i scare i can't get A...then die....
this tuesday our group will go to visit ijn to do an interview...
but all of us not finished create our question...
i worry and scare...stressed again...
for TITAS assignment,this week we have to pass up the things that we had done,
but i did nothing...i was too busy recently...breathless....
and we have a test on this thursday,i haven't start study yet....
this saturday is our college MKC....
stressed again....
helpless again....
i don't know what else i can do...
i think i will getting crazy!
i want to go home!!!!!!!!!

my art~

Recently i fall in love with Joan Miro's art....
so i i put it at bottom in my blog....
i like the style of that art..
it is simple and creative...
and i feel relaxed when i saw it...
haha....
so i was being influenced...
therefore,i draw it myself in my computer using paint...
i was just play play...
cause i am too tension recently...
so i do somethings that can make me relax...
so i just cincai draw it...
although it is not very beautful,
but i still like it very much...
kaka....
below are some of my creation...kaka

No TitLe

BoRING~seeing my lecture notes
tomorrow have test for "man n earth"
is a bukan teras subject...
i dun really like this subject,
is a boring subject...
but 'they' say easy to score,so i just take it in this semester
i dun have the mood to study...
just on9 the whole day
don't know why i wil bcom like this....
haiz~
so boring!so i just post a blog that did not have any title
haha,just wan to shock sendiri...
too stress,don't want study!!!can or not?
the answer sure is "CANNOT" la....
so i go study now lo~
hope i can score well,kaka=)

BAD-MOOD DAY!!!

Don't know why
i was hot-tempered n in bad mood recently
i don't talk so much
and i even feel tired to smile
what happen to me?
i felt a big burden on myself now...
i can't breath...help me!!!!
*hubungan etnik's assignment~visit mrsm tis week....
*sej snt's assignment~visit to ijn next week....
*english assignment~presentation on next Mon...
*MKC on next saturday~hav 2 practice dance...
*Festival Seni on March~hav 2 practice choir oftenly...
*Man and earth's test~this thursday...
*Biology population's test~next week....
*NVC's work....
........and much much more....

why everybody is enjoying their college life?
but i feel stress about it...
i know my time management is not good...
but i will try my best to survive in this environment...
i have to keep more effort and heart...
there are few more months left in this semester...
Just do the best!
others people can do it,
so i believe that i also can do it!!
this bad-mood day will end...
and GOOD-MOOD day will come!

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No matter what day is today
Rainy day or Cloudy day....
but i believe that~
Everyday is SUNSHINE day!
Yesterday,today or tomorrow...
when tomorrow come, don't forget to give yourself a big clap!
because you are still have the will to survive...
Never give up and have a cup of teh "GAMBATEH"

VALENTINES DAY

yes it is on feb14~valentines day~
i do not have any hope or any expectation during this day
because i do not have a lover,haha
i remember that i even never celebrate tis day with my friends or family
but for this year,it was special...
i do celebrate it...haha
there are nothing to do on this day...the only one was...
i have exam on this day
BIOLOGY CELL~
so i just keep study and study before that...
and i think i was satisfied what i done in my exam
i dun1 put high expectation on it~
then afternoon we practise for our dance for MKC..
the way i celebrate valentines day was just simple...
we went to Mid Valley and having our favourite food there....
kaka
i went there with poh kei ( a close coursemate + sumtime secretmate )
we just walk around and see a lot of couple~
and after 1 hour,we meet xuan nee and siew lee there...
and having our dinner at "SECRET RECIPE" together~
we ate a lot~
i eat mushroom grilled chicken,tiramitsu,and ice lemon tea~
delicious.....
and we went bac at about 10 sumthing...
but due to the transport problem,
we arrived college at about 11pm~
tat's all about how i pass this valentines day~
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for me,i dun think that valentines day is just for couple
single can also celebrate it with theirr best friend
last time i seen in newspaper,
many people was commit suicide during Christmas,new year n even valentines...
mayb these ppl feel that they are alone and they have no partner of life
but all of this stupid action is not a good solution...
they are not only harm themselves,
but they even harm their love's one(include their parent n their friends)
for me,we have to appreciate all the things we have..
so i appreciate my life now...
kaka~****~taken at Secret Recipe~****

CC REUNION

Cc Reunion is a reunion dinner of all our cc member in 7th college

tat will held every year during cny...
n i m first year student
so this is the first time i join cc reunion dinner...
the location of our reunion dinner is at ss2 "new paris" restaurant...
tat restaurant is very big...n hav 3 floors...
we have our dinner at the 3rd floor~
And our table's theme is <金石良缘>..
tats mean all of us hav a very good faith with each other so tat we all can meet here...
haha..
i same table with my roomate~kaiwen...
my another roomate~yen yoon was not coming...so sad...



besides that,other ppl tat sit with me were...
yangyang,slyvia,lee ping,kawai,n the teacher who take master in our U....
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after we all greet all the seniors to eat,
so we can start to eat lo~
dishes is quite ok...quite nice...
but not as delicious as my mom's cook...
haha...
got fish,prawn,sotong,pork,chicken,tauhu,vegetable...
the dishes i like the most is the lemon's chicken n pai kuat...
kaka~
*******eating*******


**********4 dishes among the 8 dishes***********

after we ate, seniors start to gv their 'souvenior' for us...
4th year senior r giving angpau tat consist of RM1 with their signature on it..
while 3rd year senior gave us little tanglung~
after tis..its our SS time~taking some photo~
******conclusion********
Reunion dinner is meaningful for me...
because it can gather all of us-7th college chinese...
n made our relation closer~
ermmm...quite fun!!!
ENJOYING~


*****************Kai wen n me******************



*********Slyvia n me*************




*******its winter~very cold********



***********da tuan yuan*************

RaiNY**TuEsDaY**

after 1 week cny holiday...
now have to continue my college life again...
have to wake up early and go for class...
but i still can wake up early this morning...
because i was not sleeping well...
then i went classes on 9am...
the first class is Bio Population,
our lecturer is en.shaharuddin...
he is very funny n good in teaching...
his explaination is effective...
sometime he will give joke as example,its an interesting course!
then the next class,i start fishing le....
man and earth~a boring course...ZzzZ...

in the afternoon...
it start raining,small rain~
so i open my umbrella and go for my next class...
although the rain is very very small
but i still take umbrella,scare will get sick mah...
haha
our class~philosophy of environment...
then i go library to see newspaper...
then our next class hubungan etnik~ethic relation
our class was end early today,until 6:30 only~
so i quickly pack all my books and go back college to EAT lo!
but...when i step out the lecture hall...
it was RAINING HEAVILY~
its okla,just walk back lo....
we don't scare any thunderstorm or lightning!
haha....
after that,i rest for a while and go for dance practising...
then....after practise...
i call LAU HUI SHAN~
haha,she is my best friend since matrik until now...
kaka~chat a lot with her...
so miss the time we spend together during matrik...
haha
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My FiRSt JoUrney By Train

tis is my 1st time taking train(ktm)..
i buy the second class ticket,RM13.00
from my hometown,Sungkai to KL Central...
the seat is quite broad and comfortable...
and there was a big LCD tv there n..
if not mistaken,the tv r playing a movie called 'poseidon'...
For me,this 1st time experience is quite
challenging...
cause i really blur and this is my 1ST TIME...
and i m ALONE...nobody accompany me...
every face is a new horizon for me...
but i meet jesicca(7th college senoir)...
but i dint talk to her,jz smile smile with her lo...
so,the 1st time i taking train...
wow...making me breathless...
i even not sleep along the journey...
cause i m worrying where to getting down...
it dint announce at all...
u hav 2 observe it urself...
i scare i will missed it...
so i pay alert all d time...kaka
finally,after 2 hour
it arrive kl central...
i get down the train...
i meet another senior,
he is biohealth senior,ching yew..
he oso go bac 2 um,but he go bac to 5th college...
then i go bac to my college alone by lrt lo.....
haha
i feel proud of myself..
i was so independent!
haha~
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